Everything is gone. My frens advice mi not to tell him. But still, I did. Yes I noe that I am a bloody retard. But the mre u loved him the mre I worry bout the consequences of this matter. I expected that he will break wif mi I mean which guy can actually tolerate this? Serves mi rights for losing a guy who really love mi so much. All these while, I truly cherished him, treat him as my 1 and only. I admit that for the 1st 2 mths I dun really love him lots, took him for granted. All the shits that I did he keep forgiving mi. I wun blame him for this breakup, it was mi at fault. Suddenly everything trashed dwn on mi, I can feel myself being helpless and have a great sense of emptiness inside mi. Since ytd, I been crying my hart out. Cry till tired le, I forced myself to slp. I almost slit myself ytd. But I noe that I will hurt my mum’s hart. So I went to sleep. Today I woke up finding my face soak wif tears that I shed in my dreams. I hug the jacket he gave mi and today I wore it to sch again. All these while, I tried my very best to be a good gf. Trying to be more understanding and less demanding but yet, I guessed all I did was to add to his burden. Within a night. All my dreams was dashed. Marriage, Sweden, family were all vanished. Coz of him I can abandon all my dreams. All I wanted was him only. I tried salvage the relationship by begging him the whole night, begging him like a pathetic dog. Seriously I nv beg someone so pitifully in my whole lifetime b4. When his fone line finally get thru, MEL answer. Tok as if I owe her smthing. I already in a bad mood ok?! Sua..I appreciate all the things u hv done for mi and now we got to go separate ways and I dun wan cherish hopes that we will patch coz u went to tell ur mum bout it. This is fuck shit aights..didnt even spare a tot for mi. I’m a gal after all, I got my ego and u ruin it all. Haiis. I asked kwee yong bring mi put tattoo le, should be ard this week. Treat if as a memory bahx.. devastated..

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